12.28.07
Another day of rest. Naps once again are part to the day. One accomplishment of the day was to get the tarp at the barn up again. Last of the soup - cornbread. Some TV, some mac time, some SIC videos to bring time into perspective - time must be used - or should it? Started to go to bed @ 2-am but watched a bit more tv about the tsunami. Got awoken to sex @ 4:30-am (<:~.
12.29.07 Sunday
I awoke around 10:30-am - Nalnee awoke @ 1:30 - p.m.. Sleep was a really deep good rest for both of us. NPR - usual food for breakfast, short nap - then Nalnee asked about going to town. Donkey - rummycup - some computer time - Jasper’s phone call. She just has to feel okay about what she is doing. I know that she does need to tell her mom first. Will talk to her tomorrow - she or me is the question - I guess. guessing is not the best way to live life! Set up .mac account - Feb 28th.
Writing - Life - what happens - how it is seen - how perceived.
12.30,31.07 Wednesday, January 2, 2008
The day was another slow day - I guess - days slip away when there mellow slow actions taking place around one. ~~think we have a clue ~~ around one? Traveling to the party @ D&Z - My awareness was slipping! Lights are quite glaring now days - eyes - owe to see 20/20. Well memories do come back - was a productive day - coffee overhang. Moved my desk - cleaned behind - no wonder there is a $ problem in my life - the dusty, dirty, cobwebed change one finds on the floor ~ is really holding up the energy flow. This 08 year could be a good one. Be productive & write (this is taking place on 1.1.08) since the life of thought is the thought that creates life.
~the party - D&Z’s is a nice little party place - but it hasn’t even dawned upon either of them that I am vegan. Manynames is showing the signs of age - food - can’t give up cheese. Ross & Gina came cause all their friends have children. Zoe really was lucky with the explosion @ the stove in the AM. Then with the cutting of Gina’s -triple heater finger on the cheap wind glasses. Donnie - owe the problems - attention complexes, food, health, - do not know how to help _ & I do want to help him but he does not really think of me for advice. Jeanette, getting into circle of couples because alone - owe the longing - almost went up to her last night - but not sure of the karma. Danced in the new year - habit, done this, will do this, always. Thought of Tony V. dancing the night way.
1.1.08 Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Sleeping late, breakfast, wood, Inside, snow, SIC video, news, CR. Guess the high-point (beyond the AM sex-!!), is this the writing - yes the shear joy of getting something down. Dinner - rice, tofu, & veggie - how many times? Inspiration - what does the world want in a way of words? Passion - needs a point to be directed @,. Jeanette, slept till 4:30 - -- & have not heard from here since the stovepipe caulk request - maybe her night will be less frustrated. Ay is this a subject? Will check in tomorrow. tonight Nalnee - tis good to have a bed partner!
1.2.08 Day must have pasted - for here it is 1.10.08 - life can really get going & there can be little time for ones self!!!!
1.3.08 Worked @ Trimble high for Bogue - called me about 9-am for schools were on 2 hour delay - I did not get there till-10:30 -11 & went home @ 2-pm.
1.4.08 Worked @ Trimble again for Chapman in Art. Had had a very restless night thinking of Jasper & her job. (See 1.4.08 letter to Jasper) Then off to Joe & Nancy’s - shortly after getting there Lindy offered me a drink of her liquor - I accepted & got her stomach virus!!! Swirled the liquor around the snifter & took a big breath of ???? took a sip & got IT. 45 min latter my stomach started to hurt. I ate & suffered through the night. But pain just kept getting stronger.
1.5.08 Pain there all day - but got it together to go to Star & Many Names party - good drumming even though I was in pain. Pain through the night slept on couch to be able to toss & turn.
1.6.08 Pain in belly all day - but got it together to go to Nancy & Joe’s to show Thai pics - must reduce size to just play disk on a DVD player or need an S-Video cable to be able to run through computer. Great dinner - Thai food by Nalnee, Lisa, & their trusty assistant Frank. I ate some but had to leave early to deal with pain.
1.7.08 - 1.8.08 - 1.9.08 all days of PAIN!!! - But by now I had gotten myself some strong laxative & an enema. By the night I actually slept in bed. I was worrying about not being able to go see Jon & Corbin, but actually - Corbin called & the other sea captain he alternates with got in trouble with law & Corbin had to go to sea - too too bad - yet everything is for a reason.
1.10.08 - worked @ Vinton Elem. South - 5th grade. & this is the day that I am finally catching up on my log. Nalnee has bad tooth ache - she has been putting off so now probably is an extraction now. Cooked a good dinner - cut sex organ finger left hand. though of Jasper while cooking - not really sure she has any idea what high pressure kitchens are like at good restaurant are like - burns, scalds, & being yelled at! Guess she will find out - maybe? Low on black ink.
1.11.08 Athens Middle - Reading - Smith - Parking #24. took some photos from the MS parking lot before dawn - yes that is when i go to school.
1.12.13.08 Weekend with Nalnee - things go well before i leave. Dinner @ Panda w/ Nalnee - then a bit of cuddling then - I had to get myself to CMH. Was a bit of a feelings raised over Nalnee misplacing the stuff bags.
Monday
1.14.07 Took off to CMH @ 1:00-am was cold & starting to snow. Got some breakfast @ Huddle House - but right before made a wrong turn into HH & almost got stuck back up a utility road. Got to the airport after almost making a wrong turn on the expressway & was able to back up & correct. Pulled into the red lot & parked - bitter cold - snowing & no one around - wondered fate - but bus did come. figured out the Sky-bus trip & got on plan & there we sit. We sit there for 2 hours! No trouble so we took off - sitting next to elderly couple - 7 day Adventist preacher. Slept on the plane & got into Burbank only a short time late. Jon picked up - unloaded - walked to brunch @ Swingers dinner. Came back & took nap & fell into a California Dream ----
---In dream I wake up to Jon @ his computer & there is this lady sitting next to Jon & i call her Wendy - then realize - awake within dream a bit & Then I am walking by this house here in CA that I had walked by with Jon - but now although I was with Jon I go up on the porch were there is this lady - I tell her that I had looked @ her porch earlier & thought that I had seen things that I recognized from Athens. She says that she & her boyfriend have both just moved from Athens to LA - I go in (alone - why/ do not know) talk to several hippy type folks. 2 girls on bed - talk to them. Real since of connection. Slipped out of dream to feel cold not real cold / LA cold.
Sitting out side & 2 ladies walk by talking of bath salts that bubble - just as I am thinking of a bath.
Bath - short nap - walk to Erowan for dinner & then movie - There will be blood. Intense movie - Jon making plans for week end, feels good to be with my son - nice to see a bit of his life.
1.15.08
Jon Visit
Well the time with Jon has been a great visit. Tuesday night - Jon invited 8 friends to come to a restaurant for dinner. We picked up Corinne Marshall & Mary Van Luven, who Jon knew from his Apt he use to live in down the street. Also Dave & Rachel, along with two other guys Mark? & Jeff. Mark gave Jon his first job punching souvenir pennies @ the gromahns Theater in hollywood. Great conversation & good food @ the Indian restaurant.
Wed - Jon & I went to Joshua Tree camping. It was cold & windy! We hiked up a cannon past an old home site where they had built a damn to catch water from the run off from the flash floods that happen there in the high desert. There was standing water - or should I say standing ice! We came back to Hidden Valley camp site - thinking there would not be many campers, but it is the beginning of climbing season. So there was only one camp site available out of the wind. We had thought maybe we might even go get a motel, but we set up our tent & cooked dinner - along with building a fire. Jon had thought to bring firewood. Dinner was chili. I made the mistake of downing almost a whole chocolate chi rice milk - peed 5 times that night. After dinner we had a couple of climbers come share our fire. Mike from Vancouver & Grock a climbing instructor from Zion. Climbers have their own lingo of pitches & levels of difficulties. Got some good pics of the days hike, our campsite, some climbers right there at the campsite.
Thursday - Jon & I went for another hike - first we started out across an open area - thinking sun was important, but turned back & went up a cannon - out of the wind. Up the cannon there was another miners stone house. On up the cannon the mines were still there - the deeper ones were closed off, must have been a rough life! Got good pics of this hike also.
We returned back to Jon’s that night.
Sat. - Jon had invited friends over for a pot luck dinner. Jon made black eyed pea dish, I made corn bread & tofu. Mike, Kelly, Rebecca (Corinne’s friend from SF), Corinne, Matt, Sufi, Toa (their 3 yr. old son), Dave (Rachel had to go somewhere else. This night was another great night of conversation - late there was Rebecca, Corinne, Dave, Jon & myself late into the night talking. Really enjoyed Corinne! We finished off 4 bottles of wine.
Friday - yea time runs together. Jon & i went to see “Let there be blood” - great movie! Daniel Day-Lewis put in a great performance.
Sunday - with our hangovers - we went sailing with Matt. We went out first with Matt & his family thinking there was not enough wind, but after motoring out & seeing there was wind, we came back in & dropped off Sufi & Tao. Then we went out sailing - perfect sailing day - sunny, good wind & good conversation again. Jon really knows his sailing techniques. Got some more good Pics.
Monday - Jon went to work - glad for him - even laid off Zoic still wants him to come in & do work for them. I rested & got some computer time in on Jon’s fast internet. Also watched some TV on Jon’s new cable. I made dinner - rice, tempee, & broccoli, with Kelly’s lemon cake for desert.
Tuesday - Jon had work again - pricing out a production. I stayed home - thought of going down to Venice, but rain was very threatening - so I walked up to Melrose & then to Fairfax & then up Beverly to Erwone. There I got my usual - potatoes gravy, & greens. Came back & eat - watched some TV, computer time, & a nap. Jon & are about to go for sushi.
1.23.08 Wed
Jon did not go to work today - so breakfast - then we went to the Apple store & got iWork Family, so Jon & I both got it & he can turn on 3 others. Then on up the coast to the Yogananda center up close to topanga cannon. Beautiful location - Yogananda was quite a hustler Yogi - turned lots on but amassed quite abit of wealth - for which he used to provide places like this.
Thursday, April 3, 20086Next was up the coast to Paradise cove & Zuni beach. Though it was raining - so back down the coast to Venice & lunch. after lunch we went out to the beach so I could touch the Pacific Ocean. Jon had looked down here in Venice when he was looking for an apt, but small places & expensive. The out come of this was finding the apt next to Mary & Corinne, which has wound up being a real blessing for him & them.
We also checked out the Smart Car showroom down the street from lunch. Looks like it is the car in my price range in the future - neat little car.
We came home & Jon finished loading Photoshop C-3 on my computer & the iWorks - thanks Jon-!! We watched TV - hidden tiger - & I fixed dinner - a bit more tv. Then I packed in the new old bag I picked up. I sent Corbin a few photos in an email - too bad he could not make it, but was a great time to get to hang with Jon!
Has been a good visit!!!
1.24.08 Thursday
Got up @ 5:30 to catch the 8:30AM plane to CMH. Jon drove me out to Burbank - long line to security - got to relax about these check ins. Called Nalnee - that I would not make nap time - since I had forgotten the 3 hour difference. Had a good flight - nap then a movie star magazine. Plenty of room - extra seat next to me. Get bag - car - quick fish sandwich - some Thai food to go. Hard snow from Nelsonville to Athens. Cold - real cold - dinner - and much needed sex!!!
1.25.08 friday
Got up late - ate - shit - started to nap - called into VMS - 8th grade math. Good day with short day - Called @ 10:31 - got there @ 11AM to 3:30PM. Ate another fish sandwich - got home did chores - water, firewood, sex, sex, sex, & then a dinner of left overs, & then more sex - some hanging out with games, conversations, & more sex!!!!
1.26.08 Sat
nalnee got up & went & showered & washed hair @ Stacie’s. I slept in till 11AM - got up just about the time that Nalnee got home - so more sex! We got up & had breakfast. Some dishes done - some computer time. Wood - Water - warmth.
1.27.08 (writing on 2.9.08) Well this week - I was working a lot in Vinton Co. - good to get a full week of work - for the future $’s. During this week was when Nalnee’s tooth started hurting & then swelling. Was really kinda scary. She went back to FMC & got some antibiotics. Also her coughing started again - first denying that there was any congestion. Later she & I realized that her craving for white flour noodles had brought it on. This is a pattern where we have less sex - hard to make the love making pattern - when the partner one is pursuing when there is a cough cough cough.
Had to clean up the drain ditch by the yurt - rain rain rain - really getting tired of the weather here. Keep looking at the weather in LA sunny & 70’s. Also the stove pipe blew down - or should I say the top part of it. So now I have Jimmy rigged the pipe.
A few days ago Corinne connected with me through FaceBook. I had though of connecting with her-but had thought that it would be better for one of Jon’s friends to contact me first, guess the energy went through Astral Book. In looking through her life - I found NYE 08. I knew that Jon’s party was where she had been - so in looking - I found pics of my son in his party mode. Really wonder about how Jon feels & how she feels. Times will tell.
2.8.08 I was really tired today - came home & went to bed. Slept several hours - hitched up little TV - since other one does not get reception any more? Watched TV - Nalnee beginning to feel better - has been another long haul with her being ill. Must look up lung pattern illnesses.
2.9.08 - slept fairly late - was a good sleep! Breakfast, dishes, water from Waterloo, wood, recycling got done-!! & Nalnee made food for lunch/dinner, another nap, Prairie Home Companion, then the sat night TV. We will see if Nalnee is up to sex tonight. Yes!
2.10.08 Brunch - made buckwheat, vegan sausage, yeasty gravy - was great - Donny mentioned that that was what he had had a youth. So so much smoke! I really over did it. Laid the ground work for my lungs to be susceptible to getting congested. Some good pics of indoor growing operations. Several varieties - am looking to see what I need for here.
Nalnee was still feeling Ok.
2.11.08 Worked @ Vin Central - but this was the last day before the weather started to change for the last stands of winter.
2.12.13.08 Bad weather days Nalnee starting to experience tooth infection - really swelled up - got her to go to FMC & get antibiotics. They do not sit well with Nalnee - temperament change. Moved Jasper’s stuff from Vore Ridge to Cincinnati. Her place is right nice - really on the edge of suburbia. Told her that she was in ‘redneck Suburbia’. Maliki went back to live with Jasper. This is good both for both of them & good to get Maliki away from Nalnee.
2.14 The above move took place on Thursday -
2.15.08 Had to get up after 6 hours of sleep to go to work @ Morrison & had to do a Kindergarden class to just squeeze in another work day. 2 days last week & 2 days this week.
2.16.17.08 This weekend was a weekend of just hanging out abit sick - Nalnee was @ Susan’s watching the Thai - Koran Soap. She really got sicker while there. Skipped the dance party on friday night & brunch on Sunday. Was good to just have a few days alone. Nalnee came back sick which lead to her Monday being really sick.
2.17.08 Monday Chauncey Elem. 4th grade - really see the impact of these young folks family life & how it effects their life in school. One young boy tells me of how he had to call the police as his father is trying to kill his mother with a knife. His father is still on the loose & his house is guarded by police. This all came out when he said that he could not read & I told him to have his mom & dad to read to him.
Nalnee called me to come on home as I was out of school & was in town - she was really sick. Throwing up - fevering, coughing - seems as though it never ends!
2.18.08 Vin High = another special Ed class - The whole Sp ED system really does not work! They keep passing these students & put them in the same classes. This system just keeps perpetuating their beliefs that they are okay - when they are really neither being educated or being prepared for the world they will enter in just a few short years. Came home to Nalnee being really sick still.
2.19.08 Very cold & then snow - no school - but I got my SS check & decided to go to town to get propane, food, & cash for rent & wood. Was quite a slick snowy ride in but had cleared off by 12 or so when I came home. Nalnee still sick.
2.20 Amie call from Trimble - no school again - took Juno to the Vet this afternoon - was @ the Farmacy getting Nalnee Ipecate, had told Juno we would go for a walk - but as the snow started - thought that I better go home. The expressway was already a 35 mph snowy. Got home to find that snow was 1 inch thick on my new wood pile, got it covered.
Jeanette came back to tell us of her Wed - hurrying to work on back road & ran off road. Everything worked out okay - maybe a gentle lesson. She still thinks her wood is wet - mainly her tending to the wood stove.
Nalnee in bed all day & still sick/
2.28.08 Well it has been quite a winter month! Nalnee became well! There were snows that shut down school so there was somewhat a lack of work. 2.20 - 2.22 no school. stayed warm & pretty comfortable with plenty of wood & food.
the next week was a 4 day week with work. This kinda started the work work work - to try to catch up & have the buffer of $’s.
March was quite a cold month - folks seem to think that winter is not going to stop. Snow mixed with cold weather & rain.
Wound up getting ‘Impetigo’ - did not know what it was - I was relating it to the fact that I was going to have another tooth taken out! Getting kinda short of teeth! Even went by to see Francis about the soars on my nose - she did not seem to know what it was - just said to use home remedies to draw out infection. Yet with impetigo there is a need to put on a topical antibiotic ointment.
On 2.27 I had a student that wanted to show me her foot that she was thinking had impetigo infection on it from a tanning bed. I did not know what impetigo was - though I had heard the name - so I looked it up on the net. When I saw & read the diagnosis of the disease - it really fit with both the pics & the description. So now I am putting antibiotic topical ointment on it.
During this time period of no post - Gina & Ross took of - after several going away parties, for California. Ross did give me some seeds - guess I will try to grow this summer. Also Zoe & Donnie were having Sunday brunch @ their house - since Candice was having trouble with an infestation @ her home from the excessive # of chickens she has.
There was a very nice full moon drumming @ Many Names & Star’s home. We kinda decided that the full moon drumming should be held @ their home - better circle w/ folks close by to tend to the circle. I think that this will make the F/M’s be even a more attended activity. We also talked about having an online
F/M pod-cast that others can share their drumming online also. This came from the fact that we do know that there are many other circles going on ‘around the world’.
Seems as though from the fortune teller that Nalnee’s mom went to - I am to write about children. Guess that is in relation to the work that I do with substituting in the schools. It may have to do with two aspects of my life that could coincide with the food that is served to students in the schools all over this country. That brings up the thought that I wonder how the in school lunch stacks up in other countries? There is a great movie that Christen Hughes showed - Two Angry Moms - that just reinforced the difficulties that one goes through to try to change anything in a school system.
2.27 - Jasper’s birth day! 19 years old - I have know her since 19?? - really saw her in her mom’s arms @ the Rainbow picnic where i had the first lustful thoughts of her mom. this is what I call my rainbow picnic wish.
2.29.08 Well on Fri. night Nalnee was Kid sitting for Gary & Megan. Thought she would be there only for a couple of hours, but returned after 2-am. I stayed up & wrote & watched a bit of tv.
So today we both got up late - I napped - then I did my normal cleaning for a Saturday. Our place gets so dirty with so - or should I say too many - animals. Plus though I love Nalnee - she is not very domestic at all. It is strange that some one who grew up as she did - servants - should accept the level of dirt to accumulate. Quite often I recognize the aspects of Cecil within myself. Yet being neat & keeping things clean is a way to have the time in one’s life to pursue the inner pursuits of spirit.
Later in the day Nalnee & I climbed up the hill across Carrot Creek - it is quite a steep hill - but there are old logging roads up along the hills. As ‘our’ hill runs into the next hill in the raven - there is an old - & I do mean old - truck that is turned upside down in the raven. Looks as though there could have been a pretty bad accident. These hill sides were logged only about 60 or so years ago. Then they grazed cattle on these steep hills. It is really good that the Dam Farm is going back to the nature from which it came.
Nalnee did fix dinner - I got in firewood - still cold @ night here at the end of March. Another nap a bit of TV - a bit of for play - then Austin City limits - there is an interesting Columbian singer on.
I did call Corbin - he & Wendy are in LA with Jon after being @ Joshua Tree climbing for about a week & a half. Jon did go out last week end & is going to get into climbing also. Lots of good climbing spots just out of LA - maybe he will find a female climbing partner. We are planning to get together in August up in Washington state. I have been so so blessed with my sons-!!
3.30.08 Sun got up pretty late, Jasper is sick & Nalnee wanted to drive to Cincinnati & then bring back jasper’s car. that way she could go to the doctor about her sinus & ear infection. She feels it is from cigarette smoke from the club in New Orleans she worked at recently. She does get rather defensive when I bring up dairy - it is amazing how defensive people get with giving up dairy. Guess it is the mothering feeling one gets from eating dairy. So we go over watch a little CSi bath & drive back.
3.31.08 went to work today @ VMS - for Ms Fullen - science - 6th grade. Truly amazing how immature these young people are at this age. Really a tiring day, with all the verbal commands, & questions.
Got back home after checking out Corbin, Wendy & Jon’s climbing pics on facebook. Truly is good to have sons that get along & do things together.
Jasper is napping - with a array of dirty dishes & things scatter around - still a kid. Nalnee made dinner - you know for her ‘Kid’. Jasper went to town - not really ready to hang with her mom. When they get together they ‘bicker’ back & forth, interrupting each other - without letting the other finish full sentences. This behavior is very frustrating to me - I try to keep out of it.
4.1.08 Was at VMS & got April fooled upon first thing. Taught Typing - Wallace’s class. so day went fine - got home to hang out with Nalnee. She went through a story of a planed killing at the Thai gathering - guess it never took place. She has lots of issues about that time at the gathering where she was called upon to translate. She really felt this intense pressure - yet a lot of the pressure was - from my observation - brought about by herself. She was feeling as though I was listening tonight - as opposed to not having listened while at the gathering. What she does not realize is just how much I had wanted to enjoy my time at the Thai gathering & her tension was really biting into this feeling at the gathering.
Well, I was successful at not upsetting Nalnee - so sex was great! My work sure does cut into my time.
4.2.08 Another day in the trenches of a substitute teaching. Today I was sub for Mrs. Skaggs & did inclusion - which is quite a waste of time for the most part. Interesting how these students that are on IEP’s seem to take on the feeling that they have some kind of pass on doing any work. With this kind of attitude it is not strange that they are quite disruptive in the general classroom. What kind of problem are they going to encounter in life when they find out that disruptive behavior in a job situation is a good way to get fired. Just what are we teaching these students - who are less adapted at learning the standard subjects in a school curriculum. what seems to be the standard is to teach these students a watered down version of the regular curriculum.
4.3.08 Trimble High Biology - but first, dead battery @ 5:30-am! Got it together though. Pretty easy day - would have come home & gone to bed - but Joe Barest, lisa, & Ivars. were coming over. Good night of friends, good food, good smoke, good conversation, & Joe & Cat’s pics of Kenya. Jeanette came back & after others left, she stayed. Nalnee slept a bit, but Jeanette & I kept each other company for quite some time. Then Nalnee awoke & we were up of a while more. After Jeanette left, I was quite horny, so Nalnee & I took good care of my horns,.
4.4.08 After 3 hours of sleep, I went to Tremble High for another biology class. Day started with coffee & then no food & then more coffee after school - resulted in a pee streak that was hard to stop. Nalnee’s car would not start - blamed on me, but think she is wrong on this one - so went by to pick her up from the bakery - Jody had brought her in. I went to sleep & nalnee went to women’s meeting @ Megan's house - loud kids & i think an age difference of Nalnee & other ladies.
4.5.08 Slept in since it was Saturday, breakfast, radio, sweep, dishes, normal Sat., but that changed with Jasper putting $1300 in bank for Nalnee’s Thai ticket. Library first - it closed - eat lunch @ home, then Donkey. Every thing went well - except Nalnee blames me for her ticket matching Jasper & Ben’s. She was wanting it to be the 6.30 instead of 6.25, except that would have been $150 more, or 4500 bht. Seems as this blaming & anger thing is happening more & more. She always comes back @ me as to some event in the ‘past’ to show in her mind just how that it is ‘all’ me. Strange that she does not see her own part in the flow of life that centers around our actions together.
Found out that Jasper has told her cousin in Vegas what she is doing. Nalnee is so so ashamed of Jasper’s work - I still think that she should write a book- “My Daughter is a Stripper”.
Guess the uptightness that is part of the Thai culture is a reality that allows for the wide swing in behavior in the Thai culture. I will find out more about this culture.
Oh ran into Paco - the horse & wagon guy that we meet @ the Paw Paw Festival last Fall. He has only gotten to Cincinnati. Not really a traveler more of a hanger outer. Also, we ran into Eric who was telling of his own travels in SE Asia. Would be nice to travel with Eric & Saffron.
As the night winds down we will she how Nalnee handles her anger.
4.6.08 sunday Well, Nalnee is still in a state of blaming me that the tickets had her coming back such that she is afraid that Mara will not go - since she wants to stay till the 30th of June. Mara is still wanting to go - she is also thinking that being alone will not be too bad. The price of the ticket may be her bounding point.
As I was saying, Nalnee is avoiding me - putting out some rather harsh vibes. Do not know what time of her menstrual cycle - but this could be partly behind her behavior. This time of her cycle has been getting more difficult to deal with.
4.7.08 Back at VMS - god only knows what will become of the students that I was teaching today. Their fate is really only up to them.
Got some propane, groceries, gas, & eat in town today. I came home to find that Nalnee is not home & has left her phone here & seems to be more avoidance. Maybe the email from Jasper will appease her - or maybe it will irritate her more - only she know how she will act - or should I say her hormones only know how she will act.
4.08 Well some of my observation was on the mark. Nalnee is on her moon time today. So some of her actions are related to hormones, which still relates to how one is in balance.
Was @ Alexander High - really have not been there much. Not a very stimulating math class - not sure that the class is no more stimulating even when the teacher is there.
Nalnee took the kid back to Stacie & was going to take off for Jasper’s, but she came back & decided to go tomorrow.
I had been up to Jeanette’s in my robe waiting for the sauna to get hot - but really I was waiting to go in when Jeanette was going in, but we went in separate. She has a since of shyness - at least when it comes to being nude with me.
Nalnee & I had a nice evening - our interaction has improved over the last coupe of days. In-fact she has her normal moon-time need of closeness.
4.09.08 Was back at Alexander High today, Intervention is what they called my position. In some ways they did not know just what an Intervention that would take place. There was only one student - Margo Roland - an 18 year old single mother of a 2 year old son, who in her senior year of school - is a dreaded, hippy. Told her of Rainbow Family gathering of the tribes. Was able to relate to her more that she has probable found in other teachers. People who are fortunate enough to come across me -
in their life have something of a connection to the path. So for fate to put Margo in the same room for 7 hours today with me has some meaning - not sure what it is but time may reveal more.
Nalnee came back home with Maliki today - Jasper is taking off for New Orleans to work for 3 weeks. Kris has come to visit - & I hope Jasper maintains her emotions.
4.10.08 4.11.08 Well this day started quite early 0 5:30 am. I was off to Vinton West elm. 4th grade. The kids bicker with each other. I believe that they are trying to establish themselves in a pecking order - or as a social order. Girls seem to want to be accepted & boys want to be known as the most dominate in their pecking order.
Friday night - Nalnee & I went out to eat at star of india, then took care of the things that I had to do on Sat. so that now I can stay home Sat. Nalnee is so worried about Maliki that she took her with us & so that was also a way to make it that she would have to go home. You see Mara was having a get together since her father is in town. Nalnee is not into hanging with him since he is a womanizer & also Jamie (a very young lesbian) would be there. You see Nalnee is afraid of her own feelings about sex both with free sex & sex with females. (these are my own observations. But sex - she sure does enjoy sex. So after napping & having her wake me up - saying ‘lets go to bed’ & then seeing her totally nude, I knew I should follow. Good sex - but after reading about Jim Baker & the Taoist methods of holding back a climax for the greater tantric climax. What ever it takes to go for even better sex, especially if there is the possibility is having sex with more than one person in a sitting or should I saw a laying. So now the book that I need to study is my Taoist Sexuality book!
4.12.08 After a night of sex & late to bed - i got up late but not late enough. Ate - took the dogs for a long walk. i went by Jody’s - she was really tired but would be fun to make her tired - such a nice body - a bit masculine with her narrow hips that would be so much fun to crawl between. Napped then got to writing. This has been so good to put words down - will it lead to something - who knows - but I am addicted to doing it now & am not going to stop. Like telling about Jeanette calling to me from her bedroom window - not for what I would have wanted but to take care of Gypsy. So we will see how the day goes & i will be back to the keyboard some time later.
4.13.08 sunday been quite a delay on getting back to my journal - this is 4.18 that I am typing. This week has been busy with 4 days of work & a day at the dentist on wed. At least the weather has really turned spring like. We did have a quite cold spell over the weekend - but by Wed. I had a good afternoon with weather that is to die for. Nalnee has been much more attentive this week - she is getting excited about the trip to Thailand coming up on 5.11.08 @ 7-am. Jasper has left Maliki with us again. She is back in New Orleans - dancing totally nude. More money down there in the French Quarters. She is staying with a couple that has a 2 yr. old child. The wife is Vietnamese that also dances @ the club. Would not be surprised if she does not move to N.O. - would be a good place to study culinary arts.
This week I cut Jody’s tree, got more tar for the roof, got some groceries. Lisa & Ivars came out on Wed. for dinner. Was good visit, with Nalnee getting lots of info about northern Thailand about places to stay. Nalnee is already packing & trying on her backpack, she plans to go lightly - we will see. Yes I am envious of Nalnee & Jasper - but we are going to have to figure out how to take care of our animals - when we all are on the road.
Did make the comment to Jeanette that she was my other wife - without benefits. She said she hoped there were some benefits - I told her there were & there are truly benefits & someday there may be more. Also in this vain - Michelle emailed me to say come by. Strange my connection with the women in Brandon’s life. Why I fall for so many women has always been a question in my life. Nalnee is such a combination of all the things that I long for in a female - yet my eye still wanders. Are these females some connection from past lives or am I just the propagating male - that really isn’t even able to procreate now?
This is the beginning of passover - so I should email Bernice (speaking of attractions) & Sadie with a passover note. Really do hope to be more in touch with both more in the future. Sure was not my intent to be so separated from the family that I spent 15 years with - not sure just why Bernice is such an shunner. Do not remember her new husbands name - is it Jamie or is that Chloe’s husband. Sadie’s partner is named Odean.
This week has been one of Olympic protest, Jimmy Carter meeting with Hamas, Am. Jewish pac to try for peace, 1 ton of cannabis being confiscated in Jackson county, & rumors of Morsels in the woods. There is a 2 days ahead of time full moon drumming tonight @ the Hopeless Far.
4.14 to 5.06.08 - Quite a time off from writing! This has been a busy time for work, & social functions. Work has been quite intense - trying to work every day that I can since the time of work is running out. No real pleasurable days teaching - I am getting quite tired of the immaturity of the students. They realize so little about the world they will be encountering soon. Did have an accident on 4.30 with a soccer ball @ vin high. Seems as though the learning process has greatly slowed down even from the perspective of the students. Such a waste the time that students spend being kept inside in their school building & doing little or nothing that really is preparing them for the life that is coming.
During this time there was the wedding of Mercedes & Jhord - zoe had quite a wedding for her daughter. Nalnee made a lop sided cake - that turned out quite good. Jeanette got the chocolate fountain & the fruit together. All & all a good wedding. Nalnee did come up with the faithful jealousy fear & I made the point of saying that I would have to go somewhere with Jeanette. Jeanette was there I squeamishly say to not get her in the middle. Then there was Mara’s birth day party sunday, where Charlie asked me what i was going to do while Nalnee was away & I said that I guess I would just chase Jeanette around the Damn Farm. But - Charlie tells Nalnee this off the cuff remark - & I get it back lying in bed right before sleep. Seems the nasty head of jealousy have not left my life - even though I feel I have cut loose of it myself yet have had my fair share of dealing with Jealousy.
Have done some more tar on the roof of the yurt connecting room. Maybe at some time I will figure out just where the leak is coming from. Having a home to look after does occupy ones time - if not their mind.
Well Jasper has been in New Orleans dancing (completely nude) for the money to go to Thailand. I understand from Nalnee that she has $7000. Hope she can see a future in some field in the future. She & Nalnee are getting ready to go to Thailand. This should be a very interesting trip - in so many ways, I am glad that I am not going on this trip. Jasper is such a product of the establishment. Last night she was asking Nalnee if the guest house had a ; (;). She is so use to traveling in Thailand with her Uncles that she will not be very relaxed about traveling like a hippy. Maybe Ben will be of some aid in helping Jasper to relax into a more casual way of traveling.
5.6 to 5.11 Had 3 days @ VCS - then on 5.10 Jeanette had a small party @ her house - was good to hear Jonathan’s stories of travel - among all there being traveliers. Was a short night - Nalnee was in a about to travel mode.
2:00-am we are up getting ready & Jasper call’s & her car will not start - no real alternatives come to me - blessings that she called & wanted to talk to me as to a solution. she had friends - guess not - they were not the ones to bring Ben & her to the airport. The take off went well - thanks to cells. Miss them already.
Jasper did throw out quite a real throw into my scheduling this summer - this came with the question -’are you going to the rainbow gathering?’ I responded ‘ if I get a ride.’ She came back with this - ‘I am going in my car & you can get a ride - if you are willing to be on my (Jasper) schedule’. Wow - love to but just what am I getting myself into? Could be an incredible, or it could be a real ride from - well who knows. Also, missing Nalnee is thrown into the mix. Thinking now that I will go - we will see.
5.12 Up & off to work - ugh/ Chauncey Newman - saw her the other night foxy lady a red head - think she goes with that politician-lawyer.
5.13 - 8 detitions - that should indicate the atmosphere in the room of Mr. Mcarthney. Not to say that this is the atmosphere in his room all the time - yet a sub can kinda tell how the room is run upon being in the room - alone with the students.
5.14 Vjh Pratt - whole different atmosphere!
5.15,16 & 19th - LA nice class.
5.20,21.22.23rd Went from Chauncey Art to TMS - for 3 maybe finial days.
5.24 - Good day at home - even turned around since Jeanette said we could take care of town run in AM. Sarah got the hot tube hot so off about 9:00-PM. first encounter was with
Rush - national demo in his martial art. Then on hanging out at the HT with Sarah - ooh life sure is hard speaking with a nude Sarah at an adult level on a beautiful night.
5.25,26- Off to George’s Memorial - riding with Miss, Jeanette - Quite a talker, well I did talk to - just keep the contact. Some comments of Love, & Friendship. Good gathering, really good Drumming at the pot luck - Haliem el Dob was there early. Dave Kola sure is a brother. Daniel & Elizabeth were really a good find from my past. Their children are turning out quite eco friendly. Was interesting sleeping at the gallery on the floor with Jeanette - last time was with Nalnee. Jeanette said that she & Nalnee’s relationship has shifted to a better understanding - sure hope so - would be nice to see a loving relationship that would allow me to express my own feelings.
5.27 Up at about 12:30-PM - home life is good some town - crock pot!! - movie & some writing - how - George’s instructions on coffee making download.
5.28 - 5.31 A week of pulling my center back together - dishes - mowing - cleaning up inside & out. All the time this week I am thinking that I should be working on the kitchen addition. Yet this time was very important for coming back from the fierce work time of subbing.
this week also emails & phone calls from Nalnee - their time in Thailand seems to be a good time that mother & daughter are able to establish a bond that could last quite a time.
The exotic bubble-gum plants arrived this week - along with two Afghan plants. Also got the deliveries made, though I thought that I was going to have to trash their place - since the money was not where it was suppose to be, but it came later so I did not have to call in my collectors.
6.1 - This day was interesting it that upon our walk the dogs encountered a Canadian Goose. First shortly after getting on the trail I heard there was quite a noise of dogs running though Onion Creek. I was on my bike, so I rode on around the trail with the dogs except for Jupie. Soon it was clear that the Canadian Goose had down stream to a pool in the creek that allowed it to avoid the dogs, that had grown to 3. This it did by ducking under the water just as the dogs would swim close. Then it would reappear on the other side of the pool. There was a small duck was also around the pool. I watched this scene for say 20 minutes. Soon Fudge can up also, even though Fie never got into the me-lay, with 4 dogs in the water the goose was on top of it for some time. I figured that if I took some of the dogs then maybe the on off on the trail, the goose might have more of a chance. The dogs were at this time swimming almost constant - I thought that it would be good for the dogs all the swimming. Felt sorry for the goose - yet by taking some of the dogs away I thought maybe it had a chance. So Fudge, Maliki, Fie, & Gypsy, came on with me around the trail.
There was the bike reck right after the small stream crossing on the cut through. All went fine till I stood up to get more traction & my wet front wheel slipped on a root. Skinned my knee - might have been the start of what is now an ankle problem.
So later on that day - I am sitting in the sky chair reading, when Maliki & Fie started barking up the drive toward the road. After a few minutes of trying to avoid getting up, I stand up just as a duck comes running by just flapping its webbed feet as fast as it can. So I think that if maybe I take the dogs for a walk in the other direction, this might give the duck a chance. Also, I was beginning to worry about Juno & Jupie - could the goose actually drown one of my dogs. You see it had been hours now since this had all started. I found Jupie with what I thought at that time to be the goose - yet having not gone back - it could have been the duck. Wanted to go back Monday, but Jupie had a bum leg from something, then my ankle started hurting.
Got to tell all of this to Jeanette who was in her cutoff overalls & her sun hat (cute little lady) - it is great to have a community member who so active.
The nights are lonesome to say the least - TV just doesn’t give one much interaction. Can’t say that I have truly taken advantage of this time. My time is still going on so I should (what a word -should) use this time.
6.2 Another day of not being able to resist the temptations of my life. With Jupie having a bum leg - figured I would skip a walk - though I wanted to see if the goose was still in the path.
After breakfast, I went & got water at Waterloo spring in Zeleskie. The beauty of the spring area is truly part of the mystique & energy of the water or should I say water of life.
Not much work got done today - got the ladder & was going to start on the kitchen, but my ankle put me down. I had gotten some more sun today. Sun bathing feels so good - not just from the tanning effect, but the soaking up of the energy.
After a nap - a small meal - meals are a real lonesome time - & a time consuming thing to have to prepare 3 meals a day. Then news - tv - a connection with Jody to swap vehicles so that I can materials tomorrow. Moved my car to the front of Jeanette’s & reconnected with her. She some day is my only adult human connection. Now a writing catch up time. With the new Macworld there are lots of new little things I can do with my Mac even without internet.
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